Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Time To Grow

Well here we are another holiday season is coming to an end and we say goodbye to 2006 and hello to 2007.

All have rejoiced and enjoyed good times. As we try to get back into our routines we are tired exhausted in every way.

Isn't it ironic? How we all were feeling this very same way prior to the holiday season. Now the cycle repeats itself until the clock strikes twelve and we all pull out our list of resolutions and memorize and work toward all the changes we plan to make in the coming year.

Question? Why does it take a new year to implement change? When we have so many opportunities to implement change everyday of our lives. It just a matter of making a commitment to yourself and sticking to it.

Are we scared to change? Are we afraid to fail? Are we to programmed and fear to break the cycle?

All these questions remain. We all have the answers, and yet fear to face the questions.

So when you go into 2007 and life throws you a curve ball catch it and throw it back into the field instead of looking at it as a failure take it as a challenge. Reflect on the knowledge you have gained and where you can take that knowledge. Next thing you know you have made a change. It is that easy really.

Think about it we are all put here to succeed in the course of life. For some the lessons are easy and for others it takes a few failures to pass the course.

Don't let the calender change you! Experience life and make the changes you need to get to the next chapter in the storybook of life. Otherwise you will be back to square one and life will come to a halt. Old and gray you will reflect what could have been and what should have been.

You have the knowledge and power to make it happen the way you want it.

Use it otherwise you will loose it!

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Separated Hearts

The connection came the day you walked in when everyone walked out
Each passing moment was a memory created and a longing for the next time our eyes would meet.

Weeks passed time ticked away. The day came where I was awakened with your warm heart beating next to mine. It happened I was your lady and you were my man.

A year had passed memories embeded in our hearts. Our souls once separated now connected with the chemistry we created.

That year turned into years with love shining bright. Hearts burning with desire and passion. An everlasting journey to the future as one being.

Writing the story of our life one moment at a time. Now moments have turned into memories and the question remains.

Where did your heart go?
Did you fill it with fear?
Did you finally look deep inside and found no more place for me?

Hearts drifting apart. Confusion filling the mind.
In search of the answers holding on and hoping these feelings will disappear. Yet they don't. It continues to play in my mind over and over.

It had to be decided for me for you for us. To have all or nothing at all. You were patient with me and I was patient with you.

I never meant to hurt you and wanted to love you for an eternity. My heart tells me the time has come for me to let you leave my life. Questions of the heart fill my mind. My soul decides what is best for you. To let you go so that I can grow and appreciate love the way you showed me. You loved me more than I loved myself.

Our journey has come to an end and it is time to dream another dream.
This dream is over my love.

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Different Corners

Sitting alone I see you suffering in silence. Sadened to see you this way.
Wanting to reach out to you. But your miles away.
Wanting to break this wall between us but pride is your barrier
You fail to see the damage you are doing.

Your role is to guide and protect. Confusing guidance with dictating ways. Creating this distance between us failing to see the importance of our unity.

Pride consoles you now. Time will teach you that a being should be nutured and loved
Not judged and cross examined. Now we are divided into seperate corners, The time has come to detach from the toxic vibes and heal with positivity.

It hurts to much to see you this way. Time will help us heal but for now foolish pride is our sheild.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

Something to Think About!

As life passes us by each day and time ticks by before you know it 10 years have past and we think where has the time gone? How did I get here? What did I do to get here? Where do I need to go?

Where has the time gone? This will always be one of lifes un answered questions. Human nature has programmed us into robotic cycle. Where we have the typical 9-5 day. Then when the weekend comes we try to cram so much into two days and before you know it Monday morning you awake more exausted then the Friday afternoon when you were trying to make that 5:00 deadline.

Choice- To take that 9-5 job so that you can bulid a financial nest where you spend more time building the nest then time enjoying the funds in the nest. Reality it is a need to survive in the world we know.

How did I get here? Ask yourself what choices did I make? and reflect was it worth the time? Did I hurt anyone to get here? Am I truly happy or just blaming society for a personal short coming.

I look around each day and see a variety of people but as years pass in my travel I see less and less people smiling and more and more people frustrated, tense and even angry.

Who do you blame? Society? The choices you made in life? Does anyone need to blamed? or is this our way of healing the subconcious thought that maybe you made a bad choice.

My point is that we are all given the gift of choice and we should really take the time to unwrap this rather than take it for granted.

Use this gift to help deal with emotions good and bad. If someone upsets you remind yourself that you choose to let that person control your feelings. Solution? Make the choice of not allowing yourself to be controlled by that individual or circumstance and leave it in your hands to change that bad or uneasy feeling into a postivie.

We have the power. At times fail to use it.

Some choices are made for us that we can't change. Just remember that life is a gift given to us to unwrap and we need to enjoy each treasure we find in a hope that we travel more balanced in our journey through life.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

ANGEL OF MINE

Another lesson learned and knowledge gained. Should have known better and now the memory remains. Meaning to love you only to destroy you.

One of a kind love that takes years to make. The fool that I am was to blind to appreciate what you were giving to me. Instead I continued to railroad you into a corner where you felt that you had no choice but to cut me loose.

The tears I cry are for the times you were by my side and I was miles away. The tears I cry are for the times you held my hand and breathed life back into me when the whole world walked out and shut the door on me.

Missing you each day I have to say that I am sorry more than words can explains
Your door is closed and now the story has come to an end.

Lost inside frightened this little girl hides in fear. Having to face the next lesson. The lesson of loniness when all you wanted to do was love me and make me feel whole. A piece of me is missing and I realize it was love but now too many tears and too many I am sorries the only thing I can do is let you go.

Thank you angel for shining down on me and sheltering me from all the devils pray.
In heaven we will meet one day